I have always been a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. However, there has been countless times this year when I have questioned if this was even true. As I treaded into what felt like deeper and deeper waters, I began to feel as if I was being punished by the universe. Over … Continue reading Strength in the Storm →

Why is it, that whenever something goes wrong our intial response is to panic, breakdown and form a series of thoughts that cause us to go down a vicous spiral? Suddenly we begin believing that this small setback has an impact on our whole life. And maybe this is not everyone, but it is definitely … Continue reading Letting the Waters Clear →

" You will never cross the ocean if you do not have the courage to lose sight of the shore."Christopher Columbus I am not brave, and I definitely do not have it all together but that doesn’t stop me from trying new things without knowing exactly what the outcome would be. MCAS is a very … Continue reading Loosing Sight of the Shore →

Growing up, you come to realize that nothing worth having comes easy. In order to find success, you often need to be willing to go outside of your comfort zone. It wasn't until recently that I discovered sometimes, trying to push against the current only leaves you depleted of all your energy; exhausted. When you … Continue reading The Weight of the Current →

This is my first spring with MCAS and the impact the pollen has had on me took me by surprise. Since the beginning of April I suddenly have become reactive to anything and everything. To say that I became frustrated about this would be an understatement. For a good month, I let my situation win. … Continue reading High winds →

“ The pessimist complains about the wind. The optimist expects it to change. The realist adjusts the sails” William A Ward When I sat down to write this blog I wasn’t exactly sure how to put into words the mindset I have been in the last few days. Then, I came across this quote that … Continue reading Adjusting The Sails →

For some reason the symbol of an anchor always had a negative connotation to me. In the past, I always saw an anchor as a device that held you back, and stopped your journey. However, the real purpose of an anchor is to keep the boat stable and prevent it from sinking. As I have … Continue reading Anchored →

Up until this past year, I have felt like I was on a route. My life was organized, and although I still took some wrong turns . I knew the route I was on was going to get me where I needed to go. Over the past several months however, I was taking more than … Continue reading The alternate route →

Murky waters. That is the term I would use to describe the misunderstanding around what could be called “invisable illness”. On a day to day basis, myself, and others with these types of illnesses experience debilitating symptoms that no one is able to physically see. On the outside, we appear perfectly healthy, but if you … Continue reading Murky waters →

Lost. That’s the only way I know how to explain the emotions I felt coming home from the Cleveland clinic on January 14th. All this time, I thought a diagnosis would bring me a sense of relief. However, this was quite the opposite of how I had felt. At the time, I didn’t know why … Continue reading Lost →